No, I don't mean a grumpy mother**** beepbeep. I mean literally a grumpy mom. Ok, maybe I mean a little of the former as well... but dangit. It's hard. When you rely on moving your body as a primary form of self care and space for yourself, then when you can't it's really rough.
This has been my face for a couple of days now:
Add to that the anxiety over my potential performance in my upcoming races and the need to log miles to feel confident - and I'm pretty much a mess. Trying to keep it together and cling to a few other ways of feeling like a productive human being and not a bad mom and bad runner and bad everything. I can make a blog post. CHECK. I've fed my child this morning. CHECK. I took my medicine. CHECK! I started the new rally in my fashion game (Covet Fashion) and assigned teams. CHECK. I printed something to send to my Visiting Teachees. (This is an LDS thing where you are assigned a few sisters in the ward who you check in with monthly - just to fellowship and make sure everyone has everything they need, kind of a thing.) CHECK! These are simple things I can do almost all from sitting/laying/resting. Yes, I had to get up to feed Ruby, ok. But I'm trying to rest. I think I'm on the mend but won't run today even if I start feeling peppy just to be sure. The good news is that the weather is no longer prohibitive to stroller running, so Ruby and I should be quite comfortable tomorrow when we (hopefully) return to our regularly scheduled program.
This has been my face for a couple of days now:
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I did read something not long ago about how our worth is not tied to our productivity - I really feel this is true. However - I am still compelled to be productive. Something I will continue to work on with myself. What kinds of things do you do for self-care that are easy to do when you're feeling sick?
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